Tuhan Yesus Kristus, aku menyedari bahawa aku seorang berdosa yang tidak dapat menyelamatkan diriku sendiri. Aku memerlukan Engkau. Aku mengakui bahawa aku telah berdosa terhadap Engkau. Saat ini aku minta agar darah-Mu menghapuskan segala kesalahanku. Hari ini aku mengundang Engkau, mari masuk ke dalam hatiku. Aku menerima Engkau sebagai Tuhan dan Juruselamat satu-satunya di dalam hidupku. Aku percaya bahawa Engkau Yesus adalah Tuhan yang telah mati dan bangkit unutk menyelamatkan dan memulihkanku. Terima kasih Tuhan, di dalam nama Tuhan Yesus Kristus aku berdoa. Amen!

Date: 16/07/2010
Time: 11.30pm
Place: Bilik Tayangan IPG KTAR

TCF Gathering

I feel like sharing this little true story, told by Madam Christina during our TCF gathering today. I was touched by this story that how much God really understand our needs, He knows our lacking and He fulfill our needs to the best that He can give us. Madam Christina herself experienced this. Here is the story;
Thirty-two years in the past, I was married to my husband. I love babies very much so I prayed to God that He will answer my prayer. Alleluia Lord that one day He answered my prayer. Then one day, my husband had a vision; he saw a lighted candle. We cannot evaluate the meaning of this vision so we told a Pastor about the vision. This Pastor seemed to have wisdom knowledge that he asked us back,"Do you pray to God for a baby?" But we never know the answer behind the vision.

After 9 months, I gave birth to a baby boy. He was the most beautiful creature that I have seen. Feeling relief and exhausted, I have a rest. Suddenly, the doctor told us that my baby has haemophilia and heart failure. After 15 hours, my husband brought me down floor to check on our baby's condition. Unfortunately, Lord has taken back what He has given us in the previous 15 hours. So I asked God, why is that He doing this to me? I really wanted a baby but He took him back. Thank goodness that I never stop believing in God's power and mighty. Now, I have two beautiful daughters, Gloria and Angela; a handsome son, future doctor, Samuel.

In retrospect, I understand why God done this to me and my husband. Haemophilia and heart failure require high cost treatment and care. My husband and I came from a very poor family and that God knows our lacking back then and that's what He was doing to lighten our burden. I really thank God for what he had done to me and my family. I'm glad that my daughters and son also believe in God in their life.

So, dear brothers and sisters in Christ, personally I think that this sharing will make us realized that God never done a mistake in our life and has never ill-treat us. He gives the best to our needs, knowing our limits and His will is the best plan to our life. To conclude, I would like to share this song (we sang this song in our TCF gathering today).

Sejauh timur dari Barat
Engkau membuang dosaku
Tiada Kau ingat lagi pelanggaranku
Jauh ke dalam tubir laut
Kau melemparkan dosaku
Tiada Kau perhitungkan kesalahanku
Betapa besar kasih pengampunan Mu Tuhan
Tak Kau pandang hina hati yang hancur
Ku berterima kasih kepadaMu ya Tuhan
Pengampunan yang Kau beri pulihkanku...


-Sejauh Timur dari Barat, MARIA SHANDI-

Second semester of degree program~It has been a while since my last post huh? Too busy that I can slightly see a part in my daily schedule that I can have time for myself. You see;

1. 7.30am - 4.00pm --> Class!
2. 4.00pm - 6.00pm --> Gardening (part of my coursework) and some day I have netball class.
3. 6.00pm - 7.30pm --> shower, dinner, whatsoever~
4. 7.30pm - 10.30pm --> Orchestra class (playing viola is such a pain if u don't get it and I feel more like a 'donkey'!)
5. 10.30pm - 12.00am --> Lots of assignment to be completed. Finished all, SLEEP IS A MUST!

I think I have become fit and yet healthier (take note that I'm not that skinny or fat) since I have to attend so many physical activity, instead of academic class. Frankly speaking, I love my schedule so far, just that I still need some times to get used to it. Feeling exhausted sometimes is good to boost up my stamina. But still I'm afraid that I may not have much time to study. This is not good!

Mak aihh~ boring mai exam. asal exam jak, mesti study asai ka gila. Salah diri empu gak, study last minute. Whatever happens, exam is exam. Study is study. Study for exam. Exam for study. Mmg padan la!

Kadang2 ada gak t'fikir nk berubah tp tu la sbnrnya yg paling susah nk buat. Nk ada impian mmg senang, nk capai tu, akai indai~ cukup pemerinsa.

From now on, I wish there is someone who is willing to remind me to study. No matter how hard it will be. Criteria needed:
1. Patience (most important- for I'm stubborn!)
2. Motivated (must be - otherwise how can I be motivated too?)
3. Calm and tender (I would love him/her)

But yet, I am my worst enemy. Needed someone to motivate me and guide me to change. Who is willing to help me out there??????
Answer: Hmm..guess it will be me myself.

Daddy, we love u so much. Take good care of yourself daddy. May God be with u. Please be safe, for mommy, sis, bro and me. We'll be waiting here. Thank u for the love, the care and the sacrifices that u always do for our sake. Please remember God in your everyday life, so that He will take care of u dad, as long as u have faith in Christ our Lord.

Daddy, I want u to know that I love u so much! You are my hero. Happy Father's day daddy. I'm afraid I don't have the opportunity to wish u right on the time. Even though u never said that u love us (only today u said that to me and I'm so happy - tears fall on my cheek T.T), I know u did, daddy. Daddy, I really, really love u, from deep in my heart. Mommy love u too. Sis love u too. Bro love u too. Therefore daddy, please come back safe.

Dear God, I lift my father to u, to be taken care by your love my Lord. Please guide him in his way. Don't let him goes far from You, Lord. He's our everything in this world Lord. Please Lord, he need Your blessings. You are his Saviour Lord. You're his guidance. Please be with him Lord, so that when he comes back, he will show to the world how great are You Lord. In Jesus Christ, our Lord, I pray. Amen!

LOVE YOU DADDY!!!

Tak pernah ku sangka Tak pernah ku duga
Kita kan berjumpa Dan telah bersama
Disiang malam aku Memikirkan kamu
Siang malam kamu Terfikirkan aku
Kita menyatu

Jangan marah bila ku tak datang bila
Ku tak pulang bukan ku tak sayang
Kumohon kau jangan marah karena
Akan datang waktu ku tak pulang waktu
Ku tak datang.

Kini tiba saatnya kupergi
Kumohon jangan tangisi walau perih
Suatu saat nanti untukmu disini
Ku akan kembali?

Cobalah tetap bertahan Untuk ku
Dan coba terus bertahan menanti ku
Sampai hari nanti sampai ku kembali

Jangan marah bila ku tak datang bila
Ku tak pulang bukan ku tak sayang
Kumohon kau jangan marah karena
Akan datang waktu ku tak pulang waktu
Ku tak datang.

Kini tiba saatnya kupergi
Kumohon jangan tangisi walau perih
Suatu saat nanti untukmu disini
Ku akan kembali?

Cobalah tetap bertahan
Dan coba terus bertahan
Sampai hari nanti sampai ku kembali